Peace offering

(this is not a journal entry but a scripted rp)

((This is the day following Logain's death.))

Geoff: *Geoff, like many Ulfrics, relies in large part on the appearance of being heartless, bereft of any real emotions, especially guilt...in your case, specifically, no doubt he comes across that way easily....but he does have a human side, in spite of all his efforts to the contrary...and he actually feels bad about what happened to Logain....that's not to say he regrets the decision, oh no....he'd do that every day of the week and twice on Sundays...the rogue deserved the death he got....but Geoff does feel bad for the way it undoubtedly will affect you....he's had plenty in his life to feel guilty about, just add this to the pile*

*were it almost anything else, he'd pretend it was just another day or rely on you to make the first move.....but he's nowhere near as heartless as you may suspect, especially when it comes to the well-being of his wolves....so fairly early in the day, you'd hear an unusually meek knock on your door*

Mystery: -There was no verbal answer. None. It wasnt until she managed to sleep that big brother of sorts would leave her (or so as much as i can assume). She had been numb. Beyond a lacking of any emotion. Even in sleep her beast was surely smothered by an alpha's. More then likely Rand's-

-Her room was just the was she left it before coming down to the family/ living room the other day. She didnt even remember coming back upstairs last night. But sleep had unwilling caught her and she was flickering back and forth between consciousness for most of the early morning. The knock had caught her off guard. She hadnt planned on leaving the room today. Surely she'd need to eat but she didnt care. You'd hear a rustling in the room but no verbal response-

Geoff: *siiiiigh...with no response from within, he opens the door (let's hope it's not locked, elsewise he'd break the lock).....he steps into the room, closing the door behind him....he's got a trash bag of something in his free hand* Hey, Lil Pup. *his tone is muted, his voice unusuall soft...he sets the bag on he floor by the door and settles himself on the bed....his beast stretches out to curl around you, keeping your energies as contained as possible*I expect you don't really want to see me right now....but you have to understand what happened. *he falls silent, waiting for at least some acknowledgment from you*

Mystery: -Mystery wasnt in the habit of locking door. We can assume today would be no different as really that was the last thing on her mind. You were not what she wanted to see and she made no effort to get out of bed. No instead she rolled on to her stomach so at least she wouldnt see you- " My name is Mystery, Geoff. Dont call me that nickname. I dont want another lesson. Go away and I dont want to talk about last night.-She held inside of her all the spite she had all the anger there rebelliousness she just couldnt , just didnt have the strength without Logain. Remember the night Logain found them and she was far more lippy then normal? She feed on his presence she was stronger when he was around and without that (even false) hope, she couldnt kid herself anymore.-"Im not going to run away, Im not going to burn your room down or get myself killed trying to hurt you. You just, Ulfric or not, arent worth it."-of course she was hurt. What do you expect. She would in time get over it. Everyone gets over death. Even her wolf sort of understands why it happened. And maybe she does too but she doesnt want to accept it. Not in the least-

Geoff: *oh no, he expected no different....in fact, he's kind of.....disappointed isn't the right word, but it's close...that he's getting the insipid, defeated version of Mystery right now...you're a wolf and in his view some kind of enraged fury would be more appropriate, and he wouldn't fault you for it...though at least this way you're easier to deal with, so he won't look that gift horse in the mouth*

*he's silent for a few more moments, drawing in slow, deep breaths* Fine, Mystery. *as you well know, he's capable of punishing you for insubordination or disobedience....he's shown you that his patience with you has a limit....but today, perhaps only for today, he'll forgive you quite a lot* Whether you like it or not, this needs to be a lesson. It may be the most important one you get. *more silence....he's considered his words, at least briefly, but since he didn't know how you'd react he didn't have this planned out exactly* Logain....he wanted you to live the life of a rogue with him. That's a life of constant and very real danger. I don't care where he thought you guys were going to go, as rogues you would have been in peril every moment of every day. If that's what he wanted.....maybe he was fooling himself, I don't know....but it's not what's best for you. For anybody, really. It's not the way wolves are meant to be. *he's being very deliberate and not saying "He didn't love you", though Geoff personally believes it to be true....no one would subject the love of their life to a rogue's existence, at least the way he views things*

Mystery: -Perhaps you are right. She should be furious mad angry and numb and perhaps those things would come but right now there was a numbness only time and perhaps distraction would get her over that. Then again right now if she thought there was some way to beat you up to harm you she might do it. But you are stronger to her and well emotionally hurting you doesnt seem to be possible. Well not really. You didnt seem to be going away and that was annoying more then annoying really. She just wanted to lay around and sulk why couldnt you given her that. Damnit she should been a kitty not a puppy.-

-Being well...insubordinate wasnt really her intention there just wasnt a lot of care in her words. No dont get her wrong shes not gonna go off and find a silver fork and scratch Logain's name over ito her arm looking for an emo lycan way to die, she just lacked the strength to watch her mingled words-"I know you have some divine obsession with turning everything into a lesson, but can you just stop. Go piss on someone else's sunshine. Your an Ulfric. You thought you needed to kill him to prove a point. You did. Fine i dont care " -and shes lighting up the lie detector like a friggen xmas tree on crack but she doesnt care as she continues, because really that is a lie more to herself then to you. She rolled over and frowned- " You dont get it. Love sometimes means being foolish, doing the wrong things and.." -no she just couldnt saying and dying..... she moved to sit up though carefully she made sure her eyes didnt met yours, if she was half with it shed make a comment about the garbage bag but she wasnt, instead she just shook her head and tried to oush down her feelings.- " He was my Romeo and I his Juliette.... it would have been silly to expect anything different."

Geoff: *you'd be surprised actually, about the ability to emotionally hurt him...after all, you of all people have seen him at his most vulnerable....the fact that he doesn't show that side reflects the fact that as an Ulfric he relies on the illusion of heartlessness (in addition to actual heartlessness in small bursts, as the late Logain could attest to) to keep order in his city...all with the sole purpose of keeping his pack safe from those who would harm them....and that includes you, whether you asked for it or appreciate it* You're right...love can mean being foolish.... and if it's something like getting a tattoo of someone and breaking up with them later on, I wouldn't care. But this... *he shakes his head* You don't understand, do you? He knew he was marked for death wherever he want, and you would be too. Did you happen to catch the reason he left you to kill that man? He had to flee because someone else was after him. Sure as hell wasn't me because at the time I wasn't even in charge yet. So if you think this was some personal beef - it wasn't.

Mystery: -It was funny poor Mystery thought that once spark of emotion from Geoff was a fluke. especially how he played it off. She really wasnt use to disliking people at all, and in a way you were right. Rogue-ness was no life for any, but some could pull it off. Logain did, granted he was dead but all and all that was her fault, and if it wasnt for her, he wouldnt have been so foolish. But mystery, no she wasnt strong enough for the rogue lifestyle and even if/when her wolf got stronger would she be able to handle it? Doubtful.- "It wouldnt have mattered if i died if i was with him, dont you get it. Our love , our love was like the sweetest poetry.." -and still there was no real passion in her words at least she wasnt throwing things at you. At least she didnt seem to hate you, right?-

-She had a good idea why he left after she saw him that one night. She opened her mouth to correct you that it wouldnt have been the Ulfric here but back home but didnt bother. She had thrown her life away, her family, her well existence for a man. And now that man was dead. She had given everything up, nor nothing.- "Of course it was a personal beef, but look you dont have to explain your actions to me. Im just some naive pup right and your Ulfric. Look. It's done. he's gone. I get it. Just...stop trying to make it worse already." -there was a bunch of nasty words and things to say formulating in the back of her throat but she just couldnt cough them up.- "you didnt have to make me listen to it, you didnt have to break me. I wasnt going to leave, i wasnt going to mess up again. i wasnt."

Geoff: *good God that's really emo...."Our love was like the sweetest poetry"??.....she's young, Geoff don't forget that...she's barely lived her life and doesn't know what the outside world is like...Geoff mentally counts to ten before he speaks because in spite of all evidence to the contrary, he doesn't want to make it worse....he leans closer to you on the bed and if you'll let him, he gently brushes a finger down the side of your face....it's an unusually tender thing from Geoff at all, especially when his expression remains pretty stoic*I didn't know he was going to be there, Mystery, I truly didn't. I thought the only wolves we were going to run into were the four that attacked Lou. *he's silent again for a time, and decides to try a different tactic* Let's fast forward a bit and assume you get all done with your training. You've got your plane ticket to get the hell out of here as fast as possible, but you stop in town to buy some new....paint supplies. Some vampire eyes you and decides they want to make you their own personal pet. What's stopping them from doing that? In a general sense, the pack. But more specifically, me. The threat of what I will do. If I make it known that anyone who messes with my wolves will die, people need to believe that I'm serious about it, or the threat won't stop them. Look what happened to Louisianna - the rogues obviously didn't think I had the backbone to follow through on my threat, and because of that Lou suffered. *when he speaks next, his words are more passionate than you've heard from him in a while* People need to believe I'll keep my word, and the only way for that to happen is for me to follow through on my threats. If I had backed down on my threats, my credibility goes right out the window and people could get hurt because of it. People I care about. People like you.

Mystery: -Maybe it was emo damnit. But was just the way it was. She watched him wait in the silence she wasnt sure what to think, or feel or do anymore. She wasnt going to cry though. She promised herself she wasnt going to cry in front of you. When you moved closer she watched you with weary untrusting eyes, there was a hesitation a momentary flinch at the gentlest touch before she leaned into the strange tender touch. She would scoff at herself later for letting you and even more for the fact that she took comfort in the closeness. When you said that you didnt think Logain was going to be there she took a strange comfort in the fact that she could sense or smell no lie from you. At least you werent intentionally trying to rip her apart.-

-She listened quietly to your little scenerio, in truth she really knows nothing about vampires either. She wanted to protest that this was different. Logain hadnt attacked anyone, he was just being Logain but again she didnt. There was no reason to say anything.-

-It wasnt that she wasnt in some way moved by the fact that Geoff actually seemed to care about something. it was just that her emotions were so conflicting at the moment. There was a long sigh. See what we have here is two people trying ever so desperately to get their point of view across but right now. Even if you were right, Shed never be happy with the fact that, you know, you killed her star crossed lover type.-

Geoff: *actually, he'll take the lack of response as a good sign....it means at least you're thinking about his words.....and honestly, for now, that's good enough for him....he doesn't usually lay things out so plainly, preferring to keep people guessing as to his motivations....but someone in his pack is hurting and that's his responsibility too...he rises smoothly from the bed* Well listen....I saw these outside and thought maybe you could do something with them. *he picks up that trash bag and lightly tosses it in the space he'd been sitting....the rustling sound from within is so distinctive, there would be no doubt what's inside - leaves....Geoff's expression gives nothing away as to how he expects you to react*

Mystery: -She watched you rise from the bed and there was almost a whimper. Oh my god, it was like she almost enjoyed your company, dont get too overly excited about ti though, it was the closeness of anyone/thing right now and if she wasnt afraid of talking into some naughtiness bus love stuff shed prolly be curled up in a corner in poe's bus.-

-You gave her leaves, was this a test too... she watched you suspiciously as she poked at the bag and then gave you an untrusting look. Before she pulled herself out of bed and over toward you.-

Geoff: *this isn't a test, there's no ulterior motive here.....you'd not sense a shred of deceit from him (not that you normally can even when he is being deceitful, but yeah)...it looked as though he was just about to leave you to your thoughts when you pull yourself from the bed...at that, he stops and turns to face you, waiting silently....his posture is calm, relaxed, but he's not for a moment fooled by your meekness....he knows there's an animal inside you, and part of him is prepared should this be some kind of a feint and you're going to hit him or something*

Mystery: -The leaves were meant to be a nice gesture, she got that but it didnt sit well with her. She just didnt trust Geoff kindness and thought he was mockering her again. She looked at him a long moment and part of her eyes gave way to that immma-gonna-stab-you -when-you- least- expect-it-bitch look, but she closed them quick enough before nuzling her head against your shoulder. Man if she developed MPD or something equally as fucked up, it was totally your fault.-

Geoff: *he catches the look, quick as it may be, and notes it....but he doesn't say anything about it...and when you nuzzle into his shoulder, he puts an arm around yours, pulling you into a gentle hug.....awww.....just don't tell anyone!* I'm sorry it turned out like this, Lil Pup. *which isn't to say he's sorry he killed Logain....the distinction there is slight, but important, and it's what prevents this from tasting like a lie to you...he will never apologize for sticking to his promises, because as he explained to you (or at least tried to), his broken promises could spell disaster for the pack*

*he gives you one brief squeeze before letting go* Class is canceled for today. I'll leave you be. and unles you stop him, he turns to leave*